Emptiness
Depression is a very serious and dangerous issue. I should know, because I have personal had a struggle with depression. By God's grace, the love of friends, and family I have recovered from depression. However it was not an overnight thing. Living with depression is lonely. It is almost even isn't living. Scientific studies have shown those who are depressed will literally see the world with darker colors. It's like endless ache of the heart. You cry for hours then you just sit there feeling so incredibly empty. Ignorant Christians will jump at that statement by saying "A true Christian should never feel empty."False! God's word tells us that it is not necessarily because of sin that we are sad. "For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:...a time to weep, and a time to laugh;"- Ecclesiastes 3:1,4
Depression of Sin
During my struggle of depression I began to realize what was making me depressed. Which by the way is part of the journey of overcoming depression. I was depressed because of choices I had made. I kept telling myself that I was being punished by God for the wrong choices I had made. Where I know that God does "chasten and correct" us my theology and mindset was entirely wrong. I was suffer because I made a bad choice. God didn't make that bad choice for me, He does not punish His children in that way and most of all He used my mistake and pain for His glory.
Beauty Of Depression
Looking back at my depression I have no desire to go back there and experience the pain again. I would most definitely not wish depression on anyone either. However as I think about where I was, I know God worked through my pain and struggle and made something beautiful out of it. If I could change my past I would not change that fact that I had depression. It is what has molded me.While I was still depressed God spoke to me through His word. "He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end. (Ecclesiastes 3:11 KJV) This was such a blessing! I clung to the hope I had in Christ. If I had not had the love of my Heavenly Father, I would have given up on life entirely. I cannot imagine going through that pain without God. For me my depression only became beautiful because of God's grace in my life. I can see the whole picture so much better now, while people who are depressed have a tunnel vision mindset. When we're depressed all we can think about is our pain and emptiness. So to those of you are struggling with depression, hang in there. There is hope. There will be a day when you can laugh without forcing. There will be a day when you can days, weeks, maybe even months without crying.
Depression of the Past
Often it seem's like people do not understand and the truth is they do not, because they can't. Depression is a war that be must won on your own. I know what you're going through. I know that you have to beat this yourself, but I want to help you as much as I can. -Socialize-Make conscience choices to remove negative influences and spend more time with people who make you better. -Get Out- Force yourself to go out, maybe, running, watch a movie, take a dance class. Whatever you do try doing it on a schedule such as every Friday. Also preferably something that requires physical movement. -Talk About It- Find someone you can confined in. Be careful with this one because people are mean and will sometimes abuse your trust in them. Tied in with this, talk to God about it. Just honestly open up to Him. I found that writing my prayers down helped. There is no guarantee way to heal from depression, what I have listed are merely some things that helped me a lot. Remember "Broken things can become blessed things if you let God do the healing"-Unknown
If need someone to talk to or would like to give me a pray request email me. Thank you for reading and I hope this is a blessing.
